Hullo to all...and can i take this opportunity to say "warm wishes of the season" to you all. Whether you celebrate Christmas or not..this time of year is always a great time to focus on the people we love...and reflect on the year gone by.
This place means the world to me..and though i really have been quite absent this year....its not for any other reason than that simple thing.."life" ..it sooooooo gets in the way.
But not anymore.
Reflecting on 2010...it astounds me as to how much your life can change in a year.January...i was all set...I was content..happily playing in my art room...doing the odd online class...still scrapbooking...happy in my job...Hubby and home all settled and stable.Kids were great!! Life was perfect.
By June however...
we started to worry my youngest son had learning difficulties...perhaps behavioural troubles, My hubbys boss...(and the only boss of his work)..died suddenly.My hubby slipped back into a nasty deep depression, teamed this time with anxiety disorder..( a new thing)...making home life a hell on earth,not to mention the stress of not knowing whether he would have a job to go to once he recovered.... while still coping with my sons appointments, and diagnosis...
then i completely lost my voice for 3 months., the Doc concerned i had a tumour..and on top of that..I began to hate my workplace.It was one of those things...you put up with, turn a blind eye to..until one day you cant take it anymore.
My boss was all kinds of mean, judgemental, racist, homophobic..you name it..she was it...and developed a nasty streak..aimed squarely at me.
Which meant...I then started to slip into depression myself..didnt eat, didnt sleep, didnt smile, didnt laugh..didnt talk.but in the end...No tumor thankfully...but my throat was definately stress related.
No painting..no art much to speak of..just that which I had commitment to do.
So heres October.
Hubby was on the up and up..job was looking more and more stable....My son was diagnosed with being a little boy....and i quit my job.
I walked straight into a new job..with less hours . more time to make art...and I have finally registered for Cert 4 in visual arts, contemporary craft and design for 2011 at Tafe...just to help me along...
My voice is back to its loud nasally self...Im painting again.., sleeping, smiling laughing...the eating is coming..(not that worried about it coming back..LOL).I have even decided to enter the prestigious Archibald Prize next year..
Life is short..and im not placing my happiness in anyone elses hands anymore...and I am giving 2010 the title of the year I learned to live right.The ground breaking moment happened when someone gave me a card..with the inscription...
"Just two little words are the key to a happy, fulfilling and exciting life. they are: "WHY NOT?".
It was the best advice i could have ever been given.
In highschool..i had this eccentric maths teacher..(i was a completely useless mathematician) who said
"what you miss out on the roundabout..you pick up on the hurdy gurdy"
So my wish for you is this: may you pick it up, whatever it is you need...without the need for the hurdy gurdy..but if you have to take that ride...make it your own....and enjoy it...in any way possible!!"
Love to you all, my beautiful art family.